I also thought about that I wouldnt get accepted by people if I wouldve been gay. I still didnt question my sexuality, even tho when I was really horny I could think about two of my friends and think about having sex with them.Īll this HOCD thing came up from absolutely nowhere, I had stopped watching gay porn for some days and then when I woke up I got this thought 'What if I'm gay?' i got HUGE anxiety of it, thinking I wanted to have a 'normal' life, have kids, marry a beautiful woman, get grandchildren and such. Since that point to the beginning of July I watched gay and straight porn equally, but I never realised the impact it made on me. Then around February I wasched some 'twink' porn and fapped to it, I was turned on, and ejaculated to it. Never ever watched gay porn up until that point, only took a glance once without masturbating, it was two older men, was pretty disgusted by it. I started masturbating in September 2015, *mod edit* I ALWAYS masturbated to straight porn up until maybe February 2016. All this up until the beggining of July (approx.
So my entire life I have ALWAYS been attracted to girls, never EVER questioned my sexuality, not even a single time, not even overexagerating.
Second off I have absolutely NOTHING against gay/bi people. First off, Im a teenager (male) from Sweden, so my English is not that good.
